Rejoice! Rejoice because it's useless anyway. The is point is there is no point and it's not even that, it's something a million times more subtle than butterfly wings and Swiss pornography.
I'm mincing this thought in my head, grinding it between the two hemispheres of my brain, trying to predict the next thought process just to see if I can. Just working the mechanism, taking it apart, assembling it back together again, adding new parts on each run and timing the process.
I have become a hardworking madman! And being mad is hard work, truth be told! This shit ain't easy, this shit is hard! This shit ain't normal! But this shit is so... let it come!
I feel I have to recapitulate in order to provide myself, whomever that may be, with the whole botched up blueprint and mapping of my emotional brain fluctuations and my impending head on collision course with enlightenment, insanity, tranquility, knowledge and especially and most importantly - the pornography of the soul.
May it have been more than two months ago when I passed, unwittingly, through the door of my perception. Boy! I thought! This is funny and new! And it was, for the whole 5 seconds until I realized where I was!
I was through the looking glass, and believe me Alice, the pills that mother gives you sound like a pretty good deal when you feel you can't get out of the rabbit hole.
When through the Door, you find yourself in Lalaland, in the Scary Place, in the Mirror World - the Mundus Imaginarium of the Rosicrucians. It's like Hollywood for the insane, Bollywood for the oriental mysticism fellows, Hell for the Abrahamics, Chaos for the Greco-Romans and it was all of these things for moi!
Now, recapitulating and finding that I have actually said nothing, I feel that I can go on unattended by my Ego, who really needs to chill for a while.
It's complicated is what I'm sayin'! And possibly the most intricate and unique experience I ever underwent. It was truly mind-boggling and more than that, I really felt that once it was over, and it took a whole 48 hours, I was forever changed. Metapforically, a veil had been lifted from my eyes and for the first time I could see clearly outside myself.
Once you break through you can see through. And I have this to say: there is only one reality - the physical world which is this planet. We, as separate existences have, through evolution, surpassed some limitations of our world but we are unwittingly transforming it through the power of our imaginations. Imagination is a powerful tool. It is the most powerful asset we posess as a species. It is the thing that sets us apart from the other life-forms on this planet. That does not mean we are superior. That means we're different and more than that, we're not getting with the program anymore, we're hurting things all around us and we have come to disregard the thing we owe our evolution to - the will to life! It also means that for more than 500 years since the industrial evolution began, we are being charged with shit and our Evolution Bill is getting bigger and bigger. We're gonna have to pay sooner or later. Not 2012, not 2100. We could possibly stretch it to 2200, but something's gonna give.
This Planet plays by its own rules, so does the Solar System, so does the Galaxy, so does the Universe. We're just some assholes on a rock! And I sure hope that the Universe is not having second thoughts about us. Of course, IT does not think! It cannot. Why? Because thinking is not necessary in nature and in the cosmos. It's just not that important! Because the Universe is not a cognitive being, IT is! IT will always escape definition, because IT is definition itself. There's more out there is what I'm saying.
We've been rewording it for thousands of years because we're good like that with our imagination. But imagination is tricky. That's why it's beautiful. That's why we as a species will never ever reach perfection - because we evolved by some chance happening! Because we, for some unknown reason, have evolved our imagination and have always kept it intact! We took the high and dangerous road that will hopefully take us to the stars!
Let's keep going, shall we?!
Fear and loathing in the Maldives: Feedings
Acum 3 ani
